Does it frighten you to know that I could end it all and you will not be able to help me? 

Instead of wishing for a shiny new car - I would choose that shiny new blade in a instead.

Does that scare you?

When I look up to the clouds I dream about the perfect way to end my pain rather than dreaming of meeting “the one” 

What happens if you found out this “sick” side of me is the real me.

Am I just made up of tests and pills…a piece of research for doctors?

I’m the annoying client for my therapist but she hides it ever so well

Would it frighten you if I just ended all of my therapy and cut off everyone who is willing to help me.

What happens if I ran away?

Would you be worried or even have a slight feeling of “thank god she’s gone”

Does it frighten you that I have a song that I would play on repeat while in the process of ending my misery.

Maybe I’m too broken to be fixed…